Wish You All The Best In Life.
Repost because why not?
I finally starting to write again.
After almost 2 years of silent existence (thanks to my real life that is getting more and more exciting) I gather some eagerness to start a new writing.
I really need to let this story out of my head.
It's a new plot and I think I really need someone to help me beta and exchange ideas and opinions about this one. If anyone willing to help me, please contact me. I would be very grateful.
Can't wait for my ARAFES goodies to arrive and of course the "Popcorn" Album on 31st October. Oh, the LE jacket cover is hilarious, I'm glad I ordered that one. How bout you, girls (and boys if there are any)?
I created a banner for Facebook if you girls (and boys if there are any) are interested...
Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
I'll start writing again, and will post in maybe two or three months after I finished the whole two stories.
I will post my fic on my personal journal here and share it only on yume_no_kuukan and ohmiya (in a short period of time).
I'll have my old fic opened so that people on my f-list can read it.
I've been busy with work and this year is not an easy year.
See you soon and thank you ^^
It also changed my writing mood. Before, this fic (At The End of Another Day) was planned to be a short PWP, but I don't know why, it turned out to be a long fic and it will be a multichaptered fic (If I'm lucky with how I maintain my mood). But then again, this writer block is blocking e from writing even just a single word this past few weeks. *sigh
I hope I can distract myself from just staring at the monitor and wishing for the words popped out by themselves like that.
<> I finally had a proper eat after like 5 or 6 days ruining my digestion system for not eating properly. I guess the antibiotics that given for my treatment is ruining my apetite on eating.
<> This year, I experienced the best birthday, EVER. I receive a lot of surprise birthday gift from my friends (in RL and especially VL) and from my students. My students are so sweet, but I missed the chance to came to the surprise party that they arranged for me, because I got into a motorcycle accident the day before (another special birthday gift ^^). One of my students made me a bundle of ARASHI fanfic and fanart, because she knows how much I ❤❤❤❤❤ ARASHI. She is just simply sweet, and what impressed me the most is that she didn't forgot to put a disclaimer that she didn't own the copyright of the fanfic and fanart, and its only for a personal usage only. ^^
Another students made me purple wallpaper (PURPLE ❤) and the other one draw a manga for me. I FEEL SO GRATEFUL FOR HAVING SUCH A SWEET STUDENTS. I know they must've spent a lot of free times to made those presents for me. They said it's nothing expensive, Miss, I wish you like it. I ❤❤❤❤❤ it, it means so much for me.
And I receive a lovely OHMIYA fanfic as a birthday present from secretwish109 , zero_shichi , fey_37 and jadelil, and it is so lovely, even saying thank you is not enough.
<> What else? Owh owh owh fasting month, RAMADHAN (It is going to be started this afternoon by the way ^^) is coming and as a tradition in my country, I would like to say that I am apologizing for any mistakes that I made in the past, whether it is intentionally or unintentionally. I am sorry, I wish I am forgiven, so that I could start this holy month with a clean start, and hopefully I won't make the same mistakes next year.
I guess that's it...Owh, and here is the caps of some of the birthday presents.
I spent 2 days at weekend to finish chapter 5 of Rendezvouz, and I am still disappointed because I can't manage to finish it to the point that I want. *sigh
I really want to give you a little preview of what happen in that chapter,,,but then I thought, let's just wait until my beta reader finish editing my fic.
But,,,but,,,but,,,I really want to tell you that I give a little surprise in the end.
An unexpected surprise that even I was surprised by my own writing =)) stupid me. LOL
Oh,,,and I am super duper happy because 4 of my students are able to enter one of the most prestigious public high school in my town.
I am so happy for them, because finally they got what they deserves, after 1 year full of enrichment program.
They are deserve to get the best.
I am so proud of you, but I never hope that you will read this post, because it would be a big mistake.
BTW,,,I am so happy after checking MY GUESTS feature...
I am so happy to know that so many people reading my fic.
I am not a pushy person, I don't bite and I don't want to force you to give comment on my page.
But then again,,,when you give a comment,,,I will be extremely happy.
Like what I said,,,when you comment, my energy is definitely recharged... :D
Word is not linked with reason and logic.
Choosing sides in which all humans go hand in hand is not always the right choice.
There is always a bridge to heart that want to cross, to gather together.
Strength of spirit, choosing to listen and not talk.
Patience is not a choice, but necessity.
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Every day, there are always new lessons obtained.
One thing that I learned from myself is when I'm doing wrong, I often inadvertently do so, though others might not understand it.
So, today, when I witnessed someone do wrong towards me, I should be able to understand that they might not meant to do that.
Listening is the best ability of human beings, because we are given three tools to do so.
A pair of ears, brain and heart.
As simple as ears, brain and heart.
And you will find that your life is wonderfully amazing :)
And it hurts real bad.
But I have no courage to go to the doctor.
How stupid is that?
I know this is my very own mistake and I can't complain.
I use to listen to the music using my earphone or headphone.
Like more than 10 hours a day.
And most of the time, the volume is just so high.
Because listening to the music will make me more calm, and free me from all of my problems.
I know that it was a bad habit.
But still, I abandoning a fact that it was bad for my hearing.
And I got my punishment yesterday afternoon, when my left ear starts beeping and this morning, it hurts so bad.
So bad, until I can't speak comfortably, because it will starts to beep every time I open my mouth to speak.
I don't know what to do.
Should I go to the doctor?
I don't want my parents to notice this,,,
Daddy said. "Honey, there is no need to cry."
As the summer arrives, you will stop asking why
Notice the warmth, when earth starts to dry
Free yourself like a bird, you go and fly
Beloved people who really care
Back you up in your dare
Before your time is over
Bargain your heart to pair
Better to bind with beloved during time of despair
Children are miracles
Greatest gift from GOD
Children are sparkling stars
So young, So Innocent, So kind
Love our children
You never tell me a lie
Now, oh please tell me why
Why I feel like I am going to die
When the one I love pass me by
Every room where love lies, there goes hate
For love and hate will never be mates
Embrace the love as the gracious fate
It never is too soon nor too late
Keep in heart and feel the great
Funny things to share…
Freaky things to felt…
Feelin' shy and glad…
Fade away but never ends…
God, send me the love I've longed for…
I don't want to be alone anymore…
Send the one who is not terrifying or horror…
I don't want a movie star or a guy from Gontor…
Anyone,,,as long as he is not a bore
Joy in love is like a river
Going on and on forever
Your love has made me a prisoner
To love I surrender
And let it live in my heart forever
Key of love is happiness
Key of happiness is being honest
Why do you still sit in a nest?
When you can find him from east to west?
You probably find the best
Let's take care, Love
By sharing, understanding and accepting, Love
Believing each other is a must, Love
Our affection to our soulmate should be pure, Love
'Cause life is nothing without you, Love
My love, you are my light
Because of you, my life is so bright
When I am blind, you are my sight
You guide me to do the right
If I do wrong, please hold me tight
Never give all the heart to the one you love
Will hardly seem worth thinking of
To passionate men if it seem
Certain, and they never a dream
Just like a river without stream
Put all the hate out of heart and mind
Let it fly and left behind
Pursue the love of mankind
Love will never make you blind
To such love life will bind
Questions never ending for love
Simple word but can't explain enough
Happiness and sacrifice, love is all about
Need to prove 'till the end of time
I lost my ATM yesterday.
Well It's not yesterday. But I'm not sure when was my ATM "leave" my wallet.
I don't remember taking anything after 29th March.
I don't bring it out from my wallet.
I don't want to be suspicious. And stop thinking over it, before I got frustrated just because of money.
But again, I have to say thank you, GOD.
Because it means YOU still have time to think about me, and remind me, that those money is not belong to me.
I mean, not all the money is my rights.
I am glad that you still ring a bell as a reminder for my life.
I know, after this I have to be more careful about my stuff, raise up my awareness and stop being selfish.
It's like YOU are saying to me, "How come I gave you a lot of things, and you never give back?".
Thank you for my father also, for teaching me how to let go of something that already taken away from me.
And not getting annoyed by that.
I learn a lot after this incident.
Hello, you are 26. You have to be more mature than you are now!!!
Stop Trying To Be Friend!
Each "Quality Time" that I had attended, I always get a brain new perception about things related to teaching and educating children.
From last Saturday "Quality Time" ,
I finally get the exact answer for my question all this time.
Thanks to Mr. Arvan Pradiansyah ...
The Topic was Self Happiness : Bring your Children into Happiness .
The key point is that you have to become a happy person first to make your children happy.
Sounds simple and easy.
But what parents did recently, mostly a mistake that came from a misunderstanding.
First misunderstanding is when we, as parents felt that we already understand our children.
But the point is not the understand part.
We have to stay connected with them, and try to understand their world.
Any kind of popular things that they are really into. Just don't missed it.
'Coz, when we are not in sync with their world, naturally, they will feel abandoned by us, and refuse to get closer to us.
Next misunderstanding is when we, as parents only apply THE SOFT LOVE , and too afraid to apply THE TOUGH LOVE .
Just as we feel ease and balanced, using both of our hands and legs.
It's the same with their feeling about accepting THE SOFT LOVE and THE TOUGH LOVE .
As a happy parents, we have to step up and show our courage to apply THE TOUGH LOVE .
For example...let's say.
I had a students back then.
Who love to play video games during school day.
And as we can predict. His score was sliding down like a melted ice in Alpen Mountain.
But when I asked her mother to warn his bad habit, her mother just said that he already had a rough time at school, studying and doing other stuff.
He needs something to divert his attention. And that was by playing video games, more than 5 hours a day.
Which is I thought too much.
But again, all I can do is just giving a suggestion.
The mother afraid that his kid will hate her if she told him to stop playing Video Games during school day.
And that is exactly the example of fear in applyingTHE TOUGH LOVE .
In the end of the semester, both the parents and the students finally realized that "5 HOURS VIDEO GAME PER DAY" will resulted a bad score report.
Why do people have to learn something after they experienced by them self?
There are a lot of things in this world that you can predict. Right?
The best misunderstanding is DON'T TRY TO BE THEIR FRIENDS.
You are parents. You have your obligation to do your work as a PARENT, not as their FRIEND.
So stop trying so hard to become your children friends.
YOU HAVE TO BE THEIR ROLE MODEL.
That is exactly the answer that I need this whole time.
Be "THE ROLE MODEL" for your kids.
If you want your kids to be open and loving towards you and others, show that side of yours to them.
Be a caring and loving person.
They will learn naturally, that being a loving person is not an embarrassing thing.
If you want your children become an affectionate and forgiving, don't be afraid to immediately say sorry when you realize that you are make a mistake to them.
What a nice "Quality Time" I had last Saturday.
Just want to share here...
[x]You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card (I suppose I do?)
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[x] You think politics is interesting
TOTAL SO FAR: 6
[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[x] You have forgotten your own birthday
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 12
[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ] You study even when you don't have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 16
[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 19
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[ ] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have traveled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
[x] You realized people of the opposite sex/same sex might just make better friends
OKAY THEN ... 22
1. Make a list of 5 things that are in reach:
External HardDisk, Hand & Body Lotion, Handphone, Pillow, Macbook.
2. What is your favorite holiday?
3. What is one item of clothing you wish you could always wear?
Cardigans. [Never Die]
4. What's your occupation?
5. Dark, milk, or white chocolate?
Milk Chocolate [Healthier I guess?]
6. Who was the last person you hugged?
My students...I don't remember who, I hugged my students a lot.
7. What random song just popped in your head now?
Hadashi No Mirai, Arashi.
8. Bath or shower?
9. What was the last text message you received
About 30 minutes ago.
10. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
LJ, FB, any websites where I learn something ...
11. What was the last thing you bought?
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Mecca, Japan and British.
13. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
America. Studying my master.
14. Where's your tattoo/Where would you like a tattoo?
15. What are you doing this weekend?
16. Nino or Ohno's Falsetto?
Nino. Since he is my Ichiban. LOL. Biased :)
17. What's the one thing you need the most now?
Feeling of needing something.
18. Are you a creeper?
19. What is your dream job?
Teacher and Mom.
20. What's the last good movie you saw?
Inception. GREAT MOVIE!!!
Lose my everything???
I'm just losing a part of me...
It's just where did it go?
Where can I find it again?
Is it replaceable?
How long can I hold on like this?
Am I that strong?
I don't think so...
It's not like how it appears...
Hate that it's not kind of thing that I can wish to be here at this moment...
It sucked me in to a deep hole
I can't even freed myself from it
I burned deep inside it...
Just need you to come back right next to me...
Ketika itu yang ada di benaku adalah betapa manja dan tidak terhormatnya perilaku Luna Maya, karena berani terang-terangan menghujat dan berkata ksar di ruang publik. Kalau boleh pinjam istilah PPKN, sikap Luna Maya itu masuk ke dalam kategori perbuatan tercela.
Memang account Twitter yang dimiliki oleh Luna Maya adalah ruang pribadinya dan hak Luna Maya pula untuk menggunakan dan memanfaatkannya sesuka hati,
Tapi sayang sekali, tweet yang dipublikasi Luna Maya mampu dibaca oleh para followernya dan seta merta bikin heboh infotainment dalam rentang waktu yang tidak lama setelah tweet tersebut dipublikasikan.
Pendapat orang tentu saja ada di tiga ranah yang berbeda, Pro, Kontra dan ada di tengah-tengah. Yang Pro berusaha meyakinkan publik dan massa bahwa sikap Luna adalah hal yang wajar dan harus bias dimengerti. Tekanan yang begitu besar terhadap segala sisi kehidupan Luna Maya harus mampu dimengerti bahwa sanggup menimbulkan kenekatan Luna Maya untuk memasang tweet yang seperti itu isinya.
Publik yang menentang sikap Luna Maya, sebagian besar bersikap ekstrim dan berbalik merendahkan posisi Luna Maya. Dengan alasan bahwa tokoh masyarakat memiliki resiko diperlakukan berbeda dengan masyarakat pada umumnya. Segala tindak tanduk yang dilakukan akan diamati dan diberi penilaian. Dan untuk kasus ini, boleh dibilang, Luna Maya harus tinggal kelas dan meremedial semua pelajaran yang pernah diberikan.
Buat beberapa orang yang mencoba bersikap bijak dengan mengatakan bahwa memang Luna tidak pantas bersikap seperti itu, akan tetapi karena tekanan yang bertubi-tubi, Luna Maya tidak sepatutnya dipersalahkan 100 % akan apa yang sudah terjadi.
Mana yang paling benar?
Hah, semua orang punya pendapat yang berbeda-beda.
Zaman sekarang, sulit untuk menemukan seseorang yang akan benar-benar sepaham dan memahami kita. Tidak bias dibayangkan bagaimana dengan Luna Maya.
Tapi karena satu kejadian yang baru-baru ini aku alami, aku harus berbalik arah dan mengubah opiniku tentang kasus Luna Maya tersebut. Aku harus menyampaikan bahwa pantas saja Luna Maya berbuat sedemikian rupa.
Bagaimana tidak jika ada orang atau sekelompok orang yang dengan tanpa berdosanya membicarakan mengenai diri kita di ruang umum, tanpa kita ketahui dan menimbulkan ketidaknyamanan menghinggapi alam sadar kita?
Benar-benar gangguan tingkat tinggi. SEBEL TO THE MAX!
Wajar jika sumpah serapah keluar sebagai bentuk uneg-uneg kekesalan terhadap apa yang dialami. Setiap detik, setiap waktu setiap saat, yang ingin dilakukan adalah marah dan menumpahkan emosi.
Sayangnya, seperti gerak kehidupan yang dibatasi oleh ruang dan waktu, manusia dibaasi oleh lingkungan dan pasal-pasal normatif kehidupan ikut serta di dalamnya. Untuk kemudian mengabaikan semua itu, bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah seperti membuat jus melon.
Ada banyak hal yang harus dipertimbangkan ketika ingin menumpahkan emosi dan kekesalan yang sudah memuncak di ujung gigi. Apa akibatnya di kemudian hari, bagaimana pandangan orang terhadap image kita yang selama ini sudah dibangun dengan susah payah?
Aku pribadi percaya satu hal, bahwa membalas orang yang merendahkan kita dengan cara yang sama, hanya akan membuat kita berada di level yang setara dengan mereka. Lebih buruk lagi, bisa jadi level kita drop ke dasar kerak kemanusiaan, hilang karena menghabisi emosi negatif dengan menyerang orang yang tidak kita sukai.
Kehabisan energi dan kehilangan harga diri.
Itu hal terakhir yang ingin kualami terjadi pada diriku.
Seandainyapun aku menjadi manusia terakhir yang tinggal di bumi, maka dua hal tersebutlah yang tetap akan kupertahankan.
Lagi-lagi manusia hanya dihadapkan pada pilihan, iya atau tidak, silakan atau jangan, boleh atau dlarang, bisa atau terhalang, kesal atau bahagia.
Jadi, sekarang silakan memilih, puaskah anda dengan mancerca dan mencaci makiny, kemudian sanggup dan siap menanggung segala resiko? Well, silakan. It’s your life anyway. I have no right whatsoever to hold your grudge.